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Announcement.

2010-11-22T19:52:00.002+08:00

ALOHA PEOPLE!

Created a new blog, will not update this blog anymore.

www.i-peek-you.blogspot.com

Relink me if you want to.

If you feel like visiting my old blogs,

links are provided in my new blog.

Read at your own risk,

because my old blogs contained a lot of

childish stuffs.

:))

2010-11-20T23:25:00.003+08:00

Will start a new blog in this 2 weeks sem break.

Too many emo posts ady, tak boleh tahan!

Stress-free life started. Tata. :DD

有意思。

2010-11-17T17:57:00.004+08:00

“人生的路上，我们都在奔跑，我们总在赶超一些人，也总在被一些人超越。人生的要义，一是欣赏沿途的风景，二是抵达遥远的终点；人生的秘诀，寻找一种最适合自己的速度，莫因疾进而不堪重荷，莫因迟缓而空耗生命；人生的快乐，走自己的路，看自己的景，超越他人不得意，他人超越不失志。”

在绝望时，要抬头看看天，想想存在的意义。

在对自己很失望的时候，读到这个。

每一句都说的那么好。

爬得那么高，最后跌死的就是我自己。

如果这次跌不死，我会卷土重来的。

满满地都是爱。

2010-11-16T08:36:00.003+08:00

刚才吃早餐的时候，电话突然间响了。收到一封 message。

爸：Good luck

我：Thank you papa! :) I love you!

爸：Okay same to you and I love you too

才发现，收到爸爸的 message 会比收到喜欢的男生的 message 温馨+甜蜜多一百倍。我现在很很很有心情要读书了。

还有，昨天张妈妈，我们 band 的妈妈也是有 send message 给我。谢谢你哦！回去会挖你出来喝茶的！

我们都需要勇气。

2010-11-15T16:35:00.003+08:00

从 Tumblr 偷来的。

现在外面下着不小的雨，又打雷。我心血来潮，跑进房间里，去冲了一个热水澡。我跟你讲，超爽。明天又要考另外一科，可是现在很想慢慢享受。今早的Accounting II考试，那个Statement of Cash Flows 的 bill payable浪费了本人人生中半个小时的青春，到最后还是没有找到答案。本人只能怪自己的眼睛。可是，考完这科，心情真的轻松很多～

本人要在这个凉凉的天气里去睡个饱，等一下再读！还有，我已经 plan 好这个假期要做的事了。一个一个写出来，看到都爽。

在你很无助的时候，有一个很好很好的朋友一直 send message 给你，叫你加油，也是很幸福的事……黄宣瑾 hor? :P

晚安。祝我顺顺利利度过这两科吧。

好想就这样晕了，明天不用去考试。

2010-11-14T20:34:00.003+08:00

我现在，压力到……很辛苦。

一直忍着眼泪，很辛苦。

我真的有尝试早一点读，我真的有。

可是，最后一分钟真的很难改过来。

早一点读，过后就会把读过的东西通通忘了。

我很在意别人对我的看法，

我是一个很需要别人肯定的人。

我越压力，就越不想读。

我越不想读，就越不够时间。

我真的有跟大家说，叫他们别那么看得起我。

因为，奇迹这种东西，也许只会发生一次。

现在，做我可以做的。

进行最后冲刺。

如果我真的做不到，

拜托，不要在之后提起这件事。

因为我真的知道我错在哪里了，我真的有尝试改过了。

不过是个考试，却可以把我逼得那么惨……

可能，下次可以学习不要那么在意那些数字，

自己就可以快乐一点。

我的悲观想法，永远都不会改变。

Hmm.

2010-11-12T20:14:00.004+08:00

Today's paper.. :'(

My brain is totally blank now.

Accounting = 2%

Business Computing = 0%

Economics = 0%

I feel like crying.

Lotsa people complaining me for having negative thinking.

I also don't want de marr. :((

本人。

2010-11-11T22:20:00.004+08:00

本人把自己逼得好累。

本人还有1个星期要挨下去。

本人有些话想说，但是这里又不方便说。

因为本人以为本人的部落格是很少人读的，

可以写很多很秘密的事。

本人错了。

本人觉得喜欢一个人，

可以简单到很快乐，也可以复杂到很悲哀。

本人还是读好本人的书再说吧。

本人要去读书了。

掰掰。

In this freaking cold library.

2010-11-09T19:51:00.005+08:00

Studying, trying her best.

Whether can make it, or not,
it's still a big question mark.

So, don't put high expectations.

The weak human here
scared that
she will disappoint you.

That's the part she hates the most.
She doesn't want to disappoint anyone.

She always believes that
low expectations = more happiness
when miracle happens.

YES, ONLY WHEN MIRACLE HAPPENS.

考前恐惧症

2010-11-08T20:25:00.003+08:00

我不知道为什么

考试前一定会生病

这次又要生病了

原因很简单

我以为自己很强

穿一件长袖衣服就去图书馆

图书馆的冷气好像不用钱酱

所以一出来

头晕头痛喉咙痛咳嗽

希望不要生病咯……

我生不起这个病呀

还没有开始读书

生病了更加不用读了

今晚，吃多多药！

我要加油。

2010-11-07T15:40:00.004+08:00

即使觉得自己不可能做到

即使觉得机会很微

即使已经很累

也要逼着自己

去相信自己

对自己有信心

坚信自己一定可以做得到

偶尔骗骗自己也无妨

想达到自己的目标

想离自己的梦想再近一点

想让身边的人开心

就要付出。

(-_-)

2010-11-07T00:33:00.002+08:00

I tell you, one day I might start a new blog again and hide these posts to somewhere. Maybe 2011.

And, invited readers only.

Mind you, boring-est post ever.

2010-11-04T19:23:00.003+08:00

So basically, this picture is not related with my post today. :D

Yesterday, had gastric again after 8 months. First, I was like, "No no no, you must be joking with me." After dinner, I realised that it's real.. I can feel the pain again. The pain which, a person will not understand if he does not experience gastric before. Worst thing, presentation on the next day. I was like keep on begging my tummy to be more understanding. After having medicine, I felt better. But, am still feeling uncomfortable now. FYI, gastric can last for few days.

Woke up early in the morning today to practice for the presentation. Damn nervous. Keep on forgetting what I've memorised. Then, meet Loi for breakfast. Can only drink a cup of hot Milo. I don't dare to eat anything, still feeling uncomfortable. Practice practice practice and practice, I still forgot some parts during presentation.. BUT IT'S A GOOD ONE! WEEEEEE. Miss Sarah praised us! *Not showing off, just sharing my happiness. :)*

Had porridge just now. Tummy is still naughty, but everything's under control. :)

Okiee, I know it's a boring post. Can't you see that I'm trying hard to blog in English? Am noob. Don't laugh at me pleaseeee. Relaxing now, feel good. Will do what I should do tonight, or maybe tomorrow! BCP port folio and final exam, wait for me. ;)

And...... In conclusion, my English memang tak boleh guna. X)

:/

2010-11-03T15:44:00.007+08:00

本人今天又有一点emo了。

小小的事情为什么做不好？

时间为什么过得那么快？

为什么Economics酱难？

为什么要被别人约束？

我是不是读错course了？

别人为什么酱强？

为什么为什么为什么

我都不知道我要的是什么。

我很想换一个新的环境。

3个月吧，再3个月。

好想去旅行哦，

带我去, 好吗？

当我说真话时，

请不要以为我很假。

有一件事你必须知道，

我是一个很自卑的人。

我永远都会是路人甲。

无论我对某件事怎样有把握都好，

我都会有一个最坏的打算。

而那个最坏的打算，

通常真的都很坏。

我不是那种你们以为我是的人。

可是，如果你要继续用那种眼光看我，

我也没办法。

我无所谓。

只要我快乐就好。

好啦，人有时候难免会无病呻吟嘛。

就原谅我这一次咯。

嗨，十一月。

2010-11-01T21:09:00.002+08:00

在马六甲拍的，把我形容得好贴切。:D

十一月，就这样静悄悄地来了。考试快到了，真的快到了。依旧没有心情读书。我就是这样，永远都要等到最后一分钟才甘愿去读。明明自己就是读很慢的人。这次不可以这样了啦。不然一辈子都做最后一分钟小姐。

你知道一天里我最喜欢哪一个时刻吗？就是我冲好凉，香香的，躺在床上跟妈妈讲电话的时候。是啦，我就是酱manja，每晚都要跟妈妈通电话。跟妈妈讲电话，就像把一天的故事缩短，在十分钟里说完。妈妈跟我讲的话，通常都很有用哦，让我不会钻牛角尖。我不是那种遇到困难会收在心里的人。

好啦，我也是很喜欢跟爸爸通电话的咯。只是有时候他在忙，他会直接ignore掉我讲的话。哈哈。跟他通电话，可以讲成绩，讲读书，讲未来。然后有时又讲一下冷笑话，有时可以问他有没有想我。XD

我又要生病了。Mandy陈小姐说我患上考前恐惧症，所以每次考试前都生病。XD

哦，对了。刚才看见一句话：家，是一份永恒的情感。说得很对……一家人呀，无论发生什么事，大家还是要好好爱对方哦。小小争吵，很快就会过去的。毕竟，我们一定是很有缘分才可以成为一家人的吧？我爱你们哦。很爱很爱的那种爱。:)

晚安咯。不要太想我啦，我这几天一直打喷嚏到我的鼻子都快要跌下来了啦。

要读书了。

2010-10-28T20:25:00.003+08:00

不想令任何人失望，所以明天开始要很努力地做书虫了！考试要到了。想到就很怕。万一考得很差怎么办？万一，万一，我的脑里浮现很多个万一。希望我的读书计划真的可以成功咯。这一段时间，什么都不要想，专心读书。

明天是妈妈的生日，不能回去登嘉楼，我很内疚的咯。其实我真的也是很想回去的。可是，太忙了。一来一回真的很累。

很想回家啊。Housemate 们你们可以善良一点点吗？我现在对回宿舍很反感了你们知道吗？

总结是……明天一定要加油！至少还有我们每个星期五的 Starbucks 之约可以让我期待一下下。:P

TBF 的都要加油哦。

我

2010-10-26T22:00:00.003+08:00

一下子太emo, 一下子太开心；

一下子太stress,一下子又玩到太癫。

很奇怪叻。

可以平均一点吗？

考试要到了咯，

这个星期五开始，我会去图书馆的老地方读书！

在那边读书，很有mood的咯！

一定要读！

加油！

上了一堂人生课

2010-10-23T12:49:00.002+08:00

昨天，大姐会很忙，所以叫我自己搭 taxi 回去。

Call 了 taxi 后，是一个华人 uncle 来接我，他很凶，所以我不敢跟他聊天。

Uncle 开始问我，住在 Taylor's 的宿舍多少钱。他听了，吓了一跳。

他说他的女儿在 UCSI Cheras 读，住一间房才 RM200++。

他开始说他的故事了……

他说他的女儿读了两年 Form 6 就是为了考上政府大学。

他的女儿想读 Pharmacy, 得到的却是 Human Resource。

他说他这个女儿很会读书，是书虫，所以他一定要供她读书。

他说他女儿很乖，要读书的资料都会自己找，他只负责还钱。

他说他的收入很低，吃饭都有问题。

他说他不知道可不可以完成她女儿的心愿，供她读完四年的书。

他很伤脑筋。

我跟他说，uncle，你努力多几年吧。

当你看见你的女儿毕业了，你会很开心的。

那种开心，很满足。

临走前，他告诉我要好好读书。

他说，父母总是把最好的都留给孩子，辛苦留给自己。

我眼泪都要流下来了。

我听了……好心酸。

我跟他说，uncle 你要加油。

他说，你也是，要努力读书。

我虽然不是出自很富有的家庭，但生活总算过得去。

爸爸，也很辛苦地赚钱。供我读书。

第一次听见这番话，从一个收入不高的爸爸口中说出来。

那种震撼和感触，很难形容。

晚上，打给妈妈告诉她这件事，

她说，现在还有人去打抢，有些也是为了孩子。

有些孩子又苦苦相逼，要一些奢侈品。

打给爸爸，也跟他讲这件事。

然后跟他说，谢谢你喔！

妈妈讲爸爸一直在笑。

父母真的很伟大。

谢谢爸爸妈妈，我爱你们哦。:)

我要做最强的小强！

2010-10-19T19:29:00.004+08:00

我最近很忙……就比较多事情做。考试要到了，还没有温习。我真的很怕我会来不及。算算一下，assignments 交完后，大概只剩下2个星期的时间读书了。如果我现在讲我完全不会 Accounting 和 Economics，一定没有人会相信我的啦。省回一口气吧。不过，我很 stress。:(

还有，我看起来，是不是很好欺负？我真的有一点忍不下去了。我的 housemates，你们要我尊重你们，当然你们也要尊重我啊……借我的东西，一句也没问。用了我的碗，放在那边，还要我自己去洗。用了我的扫把，就连垃圾灰尘也一起丢到我的门前……用了我的拖把，洗也没洗，就放在那边。收拾房间，就把整个垃圾桶放在我的门前，是忘记放回去还是怎样……门前每天都好肮脏。我好难过。

可能，是她们的生活习惯吧。平常，也有打招呼。算了吧。有个朋友告诉我，有些事，能忍则忍，出来读书了，就不可以为了一点小事发脾气。说得很对。所以，我要继续忍下去……

我现在真的有一点不快乐。

Hmm……往好的一方面想，至少我现在不用住那间充满虫虫的房间了呀。这样想我会快乐一点。那间房间，好像有人住进去了。我为那个人祈祷。

我会试着让自己开心的。不会让这些小事打倒。因为我是打不死的蟑螂！加油！

郭璧君要加油！

2010-10-11T00:11:00.003+08:00

照片……因为Photobucket的问题，暂时不能post上来。

请原谅我一次又一次的拖，因为我真的还需要时间去学习。

不敢再保证了，等我学会吧。

人……现在有一点emo。

原因：不详。

其实我知道我为什么emo,只是不想承认。

承认了，就证明我一点也没进步，还是停顿在以前那个无知的我。

我跟你讲，我已经很努力地让自己不要为无谓的事emo了！

笑一笑没什么大不了！:)

明天吧，明天你又会见到那只打不死的蟑螂的！

我要朝着那个不可能的目标前进！我一定可以的！

Plain craps.

2010-10-06T12:35:00.009+08:00

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!
I'm sincere when I'm saying HI to you! :)

I'm in LASC now.
I'm bored.

Just now when we are having Economics lecture,
I'm wondering,
why my sister is so pro in Economics but I'm not?!

Ha! Because I'm dumb?
Because I'm lazy?
Because I'm a last-minute-girl?
Because I didn't put much effort?
Hmm.. Possibilities are HIGH!

So, from now on, I will put more effort in order not to die in final exam! :DD
Ehh.. Accounting also.
Ehhhhh.. English also.
Ehhhhhhhh.. Business Computing also!
EHHHHHHHHH! Moral also!
Okay, all subjects. :P

I'm sorry my dear boyfriend D5000,
have been ignoring you since last week.. *Sob*

because because, you know la..
there there..
I'm very busy with assignments mahh,
busy with moral exam mahh,
busy with mid sem exam mahh.

Stop those stupid excuses!
I'm gonna love him kaw kaw in this coming weekend. :D

Okay lurr. I'm gonna stop crapping.
And I promise, next blog post is all about PHOTOSSS!
And YAYY because I finally know how to enlarge my photos!
Thank you Google. :)

:DD

Okay, I know you hate me because I crap too much.

Going to do Moral assignment.

Long hi ends with long bye so..
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Oh ya,
make sure you don't miss me so much.
Because I've been ahchiu-ing non-stop for 1 week ady.

Tell me you love my new blog template please! :P

Seafoods are cute.

2010-10-03T00:33:00.002+08:00

I hate hate hate food allergy.

I'm allergic to seafood.

I love crab I love prawn I love fish I love squid!

Even eat eggplant also cannot.

Legs and hands will become ugly once I start to eat them.

But, a stubborn girl like me,

do you think that I will stop eating those cute things?

I eat what I want to eat.

After that, I eat what I don't want to eat,

which is medicine.

kthxbai. :DD

突然爱上华文

2010-09-29T18:41:00.007+08:00

很多人都觉得我很奇怪，因为我喜欢一个人逛街。

可是我想说的是，我一个人逛街真的很自在。

要买哪一件裙子就买，不用听别人的意见，不用理别人的眼光。

可以慢慢选，不用浪费大家的时间。

要去哪一间店就去，不用迁就大家。

所以，基本上如果我跟朋友去逛街，我什么也不会买。

或者应该说买不到。

我一个人逛街的话……嘿嘿。后果不堪设想！

目前为止我只喜欢跟两个姐姐去逛街，超爽的。

当然，跟朋友逛街也有当中的快乐啦。不一样的。

刚才12点上完课后，我又自己一个人去Sunway Pyramid。

我跟你讲，当我赶时间又没有钱的时候，所有衣服看起来都好美好适合我。

当我真的决定好好shopping时，偏偏一件也看不上眼。气死人。

所以,又去逛书局啦。

申请了一张Popular Member Card，以后买书都会有折扣！^^

在书局里窝了两个小时左右，那种感觉真的超棒的。

很喜欢被书围着，慢慢地读我喜欢的书，慢慢地进入别人的世界。

只有在一个人的时候，我才享受到这种感觉。

然后，就买了两本有关摄影和一本Cecilia Ahern的书。

因为我拍照技术很noob,想拍更多美美的照片。

因为我Mid Sem英文成绩没有进步，就买多一本英文书来读。

而且是我想读很久的一本书：Thanks for the memories。^^

是花了不少钱啦……尤其是月尾，没有钱的时候。

不过，买书跟买衣服是不一样的。

买了一件衣服，回到家就会想：好浪费哦，而且好像不是很适合我……

买书不会咯。

回到家还是很开心的咯。

我最近觉得自己太kiasu了。

什么都要拿最高分，很累的。特别是我这种不是很聪明的。

得失心太重，不是好事……

所以，我要学会不要太kiasu。

这样才容易满足。

我要学会只跟自己赛跑。

突然间觉得，欣赏一个人，在心里默默地祝福他就好了。

不需要做什么大动作来吸引他的注意。

毕竟，欣赏或喜欢一个人，从来就应该是很简单的事。

喜欢不是爱。

如果有缘，自然会在一起。

最重要的，还是充实自己，把自己的日子过好。

Okay,讲完我的老阿嫲故事了。

马六甲之旅和二姐生日的照片有很多，等我比较得空一点才blog。

我真的很想知道有谁stalk我的blog。

可能一个人也没有咯，我就自己写自己爽咯。

跟你讲一个秘密，我也是很喜欢stalk人家的blog。

而且是从头stalk到尾那种。哈哈哈。

Assignment叫我了，buai buai。

越挫越勇！

2010-09-26T19:01:00.003+08:00

这个Sem, 感觉做很多事情都很不顺利，也有一点力不从心。有时也很懊恼。

不过，没关系！我是打不死的蟑螂！我是不会放弃的！

不会让我自己再堕落下去，我会不断地提醒自己，要努力。

大家一起加油吧。=）

我谈恋爱了。

2010-09-23T00:27:00.013+08:00

对，我谈恋爱了。

我们是在19/9/2010，

也就是我爸妈的结婚30周年纪念日在一起的。

要跟他在一起，我真的想了很久……

最后，在爸的支持下，

我决定和他在一起！

话不多说，让你们看看他靓仔的照片。

嘿嘿

他就是D5000啦！

我没有谈恋爱咯，没有人要啦。

很开心买下它了，老爸support我一部分的钱。

剩下的，

你看见我正在哭泣的钱包，

你就会知道钱从哪里来了。

可是，我觉得很值得咯。=）

在此感谢曼迪小姐严重地影响了我。

要教我哦！不然不要理你。

以下的照片，都是我乱拍的。

我全部乱乱呕在blog里。

我还很noob, 不要骂我please~

阿姨从台湾带回来的衣服

月饼与水果

中秋节快乐！

水果

老妈的爱心水果

从登嘉楼搭飞机来的哦。

很好吃的home made spaghetti!

很快就要生日的二姐。

肥慧。=P

蘑菇鸡肉炒蛋

口水流出来了吗?

Spaghetti还没有化妆的时候。

在KL的慈母！

其实是大姐。XD

薯泥。

这张没有看到我的脸，

所以应该不会吓到你。

猪猪拖鞋。

Spaghetti的化妆品。

我的手表在对着你微笑哦。

Hi!

蘑菇先生们。

月饼盒。

我的Toshiba宝贝。

温暖的灯。

很乱水的一些照片。

很变态地拍了我的水瓶。

天空也开始哭了，

因为它知道我Accounting今天考得很烂。

孤独的它需要一个拥抱。

时间是不等人的。

可惜我永远不会明白这个道理。

我的最爱！

大姐的牛。

她说要收版权费喔。

二姐装饰的房里的墙壁。

超温暖的。

蓝天白云。

秋天其实一点都不浪漫。

听说很好吃，可是却很难吃的月饼。

* 明天要去马六甲一日游，跟classmates! 我们的第一次。哈哈。然后就住在曼迪小姐的家里，再到孤儿院去散播爱心。晚安！中秋节快乐！=）

唉

2010-09-16T21:11:00.003+08:00

最近有一点难过。房间里突然出现很多虫，很恐怖的发霉虫。想要澄清的是它们不是因为我的房间肮脏才出现的。它们把我的身体咬得红红的。就算搬去别的房间，每间房相信都是一样的。第一天，不知道要怎样处理，而且很累了，所以就哭。哭得很惨，不能停下。第二天，冲凉后很舒服的时候，发现我放在房间的书包也都发霉了。到底怎么了……又哭了。打给妈妈之后，很想找个人，打电话聊聊，可是又不知道要找谁，找了也帮不上忙。是的，我也是觉得我自己没用，发生什么事，就会马上哭。巨蟹座的我，就是这样情绪化。现在暂时住在姐姐家，很安心。

Sem 2 开始到现在，我都不知道我在做什么……下个礼拜又考试了。我惨了。我真的很没有信心。很想告诉他们不要对我期望那么高。糟糕了。

Those mold insects shall die.

2010-09-14T18:00:00.002+08:00

Hate those stupid bugs in my room. Can't believe I cried badly because of them yesterday. They made me so stress now. I hate them. I REALLY DO.

I can smell stress.

2010-09-12T22:37:00.003+08:00

Please please please please please please please please WAIT FOR ME! I promise I will be back after my mid sem exam! Gonna give my blog a new look, and proper updates. So, PLEASE WAIT FOR ME! Btw, college starts tomorrow. This made me so unhappy. Parents are going back to KT tomorrow. This made me so unhappy. Mid sem exam is on next week. This made me so unhappy. Buai buai.

I am a fat girl.

2010-09-05T22:09:00.005+08:00

WHAT'S WRONG BEING FAT?!

I'm not that angry actually, just sometimes I'm quite sad. I know that I'm fat and I just can't stop eating. When I went to jog today, the sky starts to cry. Why lah treat me like this. My friends are comparing me with those slim slim leng lui everyday. Yorr. I'm not slim and leng lui I know. Why lah have to make me so so so so so sad. Don't lah keep on reminding me about how fat I am. Don't be so honest please. I will try to control myself lor.

Thanks to my old best friends, they love me for who I am, not because of my look. :)

如果

2010-08-29T02:04:00.004+08:00

如果我看见的，跟我想的一样

如果我没有猜错

如果我不是对号入座

我想跟你说一声

对不起。

To: Goor Min Yuan

2010-08-28T22:56:00.002+08:00

My soul sister,

I know you are fine now. (Actually I'm not really sure.)

Just to tell you that,

you are the best!

I support you always!

You can find a better one, always.

Smile. :)

很无奈

2010-08-27T00:05:00.003+08:00

你，有没有这样的时候？

莫名地心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静地发呆，怀念着逝去的人和事。

突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心里闷得发慌，拼命想寻找一个出口。

发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的人，突然觉得说不出话。

突然感觉自己与世界格格不入，你曾经一直坚持的东西一夜之间面目全非。

突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。

别人突然对你说：我觉得你变了。然后，自己开始百感交集。

突然希望时间为你停下来，就这样一直和喜欢的人地老天荒。

在自己脆弱的时候，想一个人躲起来，不愿别人看到自己的伤口。

突然很想哭，却难过得哭不出来。

夜深人静的时候，突然觉得寂寞深入骨髓。

走过熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一个人的脸。

明明自己心里有很多话想要说，却不知道怎样表达。

有一股无名的火，很想找个人发泄，很想大声喊出来。

觉得自己其实一无所有，仿佛被世界抛弃。

明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。

很想放纵自己，希望自己彻彻底底醉一次。

自己的梦想很多，却力不从心。

常常找不到事情做，无聊得无所适从。

突然找不到自己，把自己弄丢了。

心里突然冒出一种“厌倦”的情绪，觉得自己很累很累。

看不到自己未来的样子，面对未来，迷茫得不知所措。

发现自己一夜之间长大了。

听到一首老歌，就突然想起了一个人。

希望能找个人好好疼爱自己，渴望一种安全感。

别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷得发慌。

常常在回忆里挣扎，有很多过去无法释怀。

渴望一场轰轰烈烈的恋爱，很想去做一些疯狂的事。

渴望被人理解，渴望别人的关怀，渴望一份简单的快乐。

看着时间一点点流逝，自己却无能为力。

对的人

2010-08-25T21:56:00.003+08:00

“能遇见一个对的人，过着简单平凡的一生，是最难得的幸福。”

可惜的是，到现在我都还没遇到。

没关系啦，急不来。

慢慢等吧，总有一天，

那个对的人会出现的。

~

2010-08-25T13:03:00.003+08:00

I cried badly two days ago, in my room.

Then.. I felt better. :)

越多东西做就越懒惰

2010-08-23T16:56:00.005+08:00

我没有骗你，我真的很累。

去了两天从早上八点到晚上十点的讲座会

功课一大堆都没有碰到

今天早上在班上，整个人像游魂那样

讲话都懒惰

老师教的东西，根本一点都没有进到我的脑

回宿舍睡了一小时多

果然，郭璧君又回来了！XD

真的从那讲座会学到很多很多的东西

可是，没得休息的周末是很可怜的。

这个星期的周末，也是没得休息。

有一种要崩溃的感觉

第5个星期了

功课，一团糟

看到别人很勤劳地在读书的时候

我很内疚咯。

我只是想睡到太阳晒到屁股才起来罢了。

可以吗？

我都跟你讲我会成功的啦～

2010-08-19T19:20:00.005+08:00

我要跟你们讲！我煮饭成功了！

快点跟我讲看起来很好吃！

其实真的很好吃。:P

可是hor, 不要对我期望那么高啦。

我才第二次煮饭罢了。

他们讲我很man, 不像女孩子。

现在我会煮饭了，

有没有一点点像女孩子了leh~ XD

没有？:(

没关系，我还是喜欢那个很man的我。:)

I feel so lost, recently.

2010-08-17T20:22:00.005+08:00

Cooked rice just now. Like first time in life. Okay laugh as loud as you can. It was success but.. too little. :( So I end up eating bread with NUTELLA :D after rice. And I tell you I'm not going to give up, I'm going to try again tomorrow!

Seriously I don't know why I'm so emo everyday. Sigh. But I'm happy with the new timetable. Wednesday's class until 12pm only! Yipee. :) Friday's class until 3pm only. Yipee Yipee. :)

Fine. Actually I'm not happy. Just without any reason. Bye.

Fun in library.

2010-08-16T17:37:00.005+08:00

Okay, 3 of us eat full nothing to do. So, we play with the webcam! :D

我有全世界最好的家人

2010-08-11T15:07:00.004+08:00

照片是NS时拍的，头发超短。

昨天我妈妈跟我说，几时要打给她都可以，她会陪我讲话。
很温暖咯。:)

真的很想念她，和她煮的饭。:P

我真的觉得
我妈妈是世界上最好的妈妈。

哦
那天我们四兄妹一起吃饭
很久没有这样了～
什么生意的东西都没有谈
真的很开心！
虽然我一直被zat =.="
可是心甘情愿咯 :D

朋友全部在赶assignment
我又在浪费时间。
真聪明。XD

:(

2010-08-09T19:07:00.002+08:00

Peng you, wo zhen de hen xiang nian ni men.

乱

2010-08-07T15:29:00.003+08:00

我最近有一种很无助的感觉。我不知道出了什么问题。生活，完全没目标。朋友开始变了。很不可理喻地变了。我真的很讨厌被敷衍的感觉。朋友，今天你敷衍我，你就要有心理准备我以后都不会找你了。可能我自己也真的很有问题。我不知道是什么问题。最近真的很乱。我不知道我要的是什么。

Complaining

2010-08-05T17:42:00.002+08:00

Staying in hostel is not fun at all. Especially when the rental is so expensive. And I have to worry for your electrical fees which I must pay myself if exceed RM30 when I switch on the air cond. Can do nothing besides studying and read novel in my room because Internet service is not available yet. Super lonely at night when I wake up to study after taking a nap. And the worst part is there isn't any restaurant or cafe open at night. Everyday have to think about the dinner. NOOOO. I'm not happy. But, the best part is I don't have to wait for the bus anymore. Saving my time. And the distance between hostel and class is so near. The only good thing. Friends, find me lah when you are boring at night because FYI I'm super lonely.

999

2010-08-02T18:57:00.001+08:00

Hello, balai polis?

Saya ingin buat laporan.

Hatiku telah dicuri.

:o

2010-08-01T13:34:00.001+08:00

明天开始会很忙很忙了
今晚要住进宿舍了
我怕鬼。:/

手汗

2010-07-31T00:44:00.008+08:00

其实，我的手掌会流汗
只要一紧张
好像考试，presentation, 检查成绩
我的手就会像刚洗完手那样，流很多汗
还记得上次检查我final exam的成绩时
整个laptop湿湿的
不紧张，手汗也会流个不停
很恶心，对吗？

记得有一次
去一间面包店买面包
要还钱时，我流着汗的手
不小心动到后面一位中年妇女的手
她……
立刻动作很大地抹她的手
其实有hurt到我咯。
搞到我因为我的手而自卑

是有手术可以做啦
可是，没有那个必要。

我姐姐曾经开玩笑说
以后我的男朋友会不想牵我的手
可是……她也有补充
如果他喜欢我，他不会介意

那个不介意我有手汗的冬瓜
几时要出现？
没关系
我还有大把时间，才18岁
可以慢慢等 XD

他们还笑我说
如果我去沙漠
没有水喝也不会渴死
因为我可以舔我的手汗 =.="

我知道这个post很random～
原谅我啦，我睡不着。
Okay啦，我承认我想太多了。

I will.

2010-07-30T17:55:00.002+08:00

Wait for the boy
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats
who holds your hand in front of his friends
who thinks you are pretty without makeup on.
One who is constantly reminding you of
how much he cares and
how lucky he is to have you. :)

:/

2010-07-29T21:19:00.002+08:00

我要的东西
真的很简单
一就是一
二就是二
不要1.2，不要2.4或3.85
它们太复杂了
不适合我

If you could see me now.

2010-07-24T20:57:00.002+08:00

Hello. This is the book I'm reading now.
Still, book from my favourite author.
Her words, her sentences and the way she describes everything,
perfect.
The storyline. Awwww~ So sweet! <3
I might finish it by tonight.
Can't stop reading now. Climax!

I wish I can have an imaginary friend like Ivan.
Day dreaming again.

Dream big.

2010-07-24T14:40:00.005+08:00

The final exam results released yesterday. I'm satisfied with my results. :) And I didn't disappoint my family members! The best part was the moment when I saw the happiness in their eyes. Especially my dad and mum. It's like finally huh? After SPM results, the ugliest thing in my life. The results are quite unexpected. Keep on checking whether it's my student ID or not. But then, there's still a long way to go! Now I'm worrying about Malaysian Studies, the evil subject. Please let me pass. :/ Okay should stop crapping. Nobody wants to listen to my grandmother stories I know.

Hmm, yesterday, my brother told me that results are just a passport, if you want to fly, you need to know how to find your wings. What he said is true. I shouldn't leave my dream behind. :)

Back to KL. So sad. Busy life is going to start again yet my heart is still in KT. :(

下雨了

2010-07-22T18:47:00.003+08:00

其实我真的很讨厌生病
全身热热的
又呼吸困难
晚上睡觉也睡不好
特别讨厌全身没力的感觉
什么事都不能做

两天没帮妈妈做家务了
又每天出去
很内疚

那天要晒衣服时
我打开洗衣机
很多很多的衣服
我就“哇”了一声
妈说
你才知道辛苦啊？
听到这一句话
整个人傻着
我才18岁，晒衣服就腰酸背痛
妈几岁了？
每天一大堆工作等着她
我帮的，算得了什么……

我不知道我为什么这样emo
可能是下雨了
又打雷了
我不喜欢打雷……

明天就可以知道成绩了
希望成绩不会让我觉得我很没有用
也希望病快快好起来。
星期日就要搬家了
忙碌的日子就要开始了
我真的很不想回去……

未来的一部份

2010-07-19T10:56:00.007+08:00

为了看到更多这样的风景
我决定
买一架相机
还有还有
去学驾车

我要自己一个人驾车到处乱乱跑！:)

相机是不会这么快买啦
没钱 :)
关于驾车
明天我就要去听undang了咯!
不用每天给人家笑
18岁了，undang都还没有听
也不用麻烦别人
去哪里都要人家载
希望uncle明天不要放我飞机！

如果你还想看到我
不想我明天8个小时一个人听undang闷死
找我！:)

National Marching Band Competition 2010

2010-07-18T11:44:00.005+08:00

Rehearsal.

Fion & Me! :D

The Best Conductor 2010! *in my heart*

Spot Fion!

Went to "KIWA" to overnight with band members.
Wow, it's freaking cold okay!
I'm protecting myself from cold like what you can see in the picture above. XD
The best part is,
aeroplane passed by every 5 minutes.
The sound is very annoying.
I end up: sleep, wake up, sleep, wake up.

Spot the yellow us! :D

Form 5, Form 6 and Form 7?!

Supporters and The Best Drum Major! :D

The feeling is weird when I'm not performing and watching as an audience. We shouted like crazy people just ran out from Tanjung Rambutan! And I got sore throat on the next day. Swadaya's performance was awesome. Although they've made some mistakes, but that's the best they gave. We do enjoy their show. :) Colourguard section is good! Improved very much compared to last year! Same as last year, they've been announced as 2nd Runner Up. But that's not a big deal to them. They said they have done the best. :)

This year's supporters were in STRIKING YELLOW. The shirt is nice and the colour as well. Thanks to the one who made these T-shirts. :)

Oh and, Tor Yenming, the very yeng Drum Major, finally got The Best Drum Major award! Weeeheeee! He rocked the stadium! Congratulations!

Again, I enjoyed the show very very very very much! Thanks for the great show, thanks for making my day Swadayians! :)

Swadayian For Life.

Unexpected call.

2010-07-17T19:46:00.005+08:00

I just received a call from Ah Siang few minutes ago. He's one of my friends in NS. I'm shocked because we didn't contact each other much since NS ended. He's currently studying in Penang. Out of a sudden, I miss everyone of them so much. Everyone had started their own life. I'm such a bad friend. Should start to contact with everyone I guess? I can still remember we were very close with each other in that 2 months because there were only 17 Chinese in our camp. I miss their sweet smiles, and I miss everything we have done together.

Yew, Fu, Phua, Yew Puay, Chau, Hui, Hao, Siang, Pang Wei
Ling, Peaw, Yeng, Vien, Shan, Tong, Peei
Hope everyone of you is fine!
I miss you all!

Don't ask me.

2010-07-17T00:41:00.004+08:00

"I stared into your eyes and I literally got lost in your gaze while we were talking. For a while there it seemed like all you did was to move your mouth without breathing a word. Nothing you said was going into my head because I was so enamored with how cute you are."

Found this.
That's exactly what I feel.

I'm done trying.
But it seems like you don't really care,
so why should I? :)

Happy Birthday!

2010-07-17T00:03:00.004+08:00

This was last year's 17-years-old-Jizai.
Still a cute boy!

This is the recent 18-years-old-Jizai!
Changed into a handsome guy huh!

So, yesterday was Jizai a.k.a Chin Guo How a.k.a Jeff Chin's birthday! Haven't really celebrate with him since I just reached KT few hours ago. As you can see from pictures above, he had changed a lot! But no matter how, he's still the Jizai in our heart! Anyway, may all your dreams come true and good luck in your studies! Never give up! See you tomorrow! XD Happy 18th Birthday my friend!

开始过着猪的生活了

2010-07-10T12:32:00.004+08:00

我，考完试了！现在正在享受那种什么都不用想的生活。
这次考试，只能说我准备不充足咯。希望不要令我的家人失望。
我答应！Semester 2 我一定会很很很努力的！一拿到 Lecture Notes 就会摸清它们的底！XD
不要不相信我！相信我啦！

我今天，睡到自然醒。然后，就很轻松地去吃早餐～有没有很羡慕我？XD
没有压力的生活，真的很棒！可是，只可以维持两个星期罢了。
开学了，就没有了～

我会尽量在这个假期 update 多多，可是不是现在。因为我要去看戏了。

还有还有，东西是你的，就是你的。
抢回来的，没有意思。我最近领悟到的。

掰掰，不要想念我！羡慕我吧！哈哈哈！XD

18岁

2010-06-27T00:16:00.003+08:00

过了个很简单的生日

收到了不少的祝福

还有

我的家人真的很可爱

谢谢你们

我终于18岁了

祝我生日快乐

好想好想好想好想

2010-06-16T18:49:00.002+08:00

当太多东西围绕着你
赶功课赶得晕头转向
不分日夜
病了都不能好好地休息
每天都不够睡的时候
你会开始怀疑

这么忙到底是为了什么？

我是还没有找到答案啦。
所以继续赶功课咯。

真的好想满足地大睡一场。
什么都不用烦。

Driving Me Crazy

2010-06-13T09:29:00.002+08:00

Changed a blog template. Pink is sweet?
I tell you what, assignments, presentations, tests and final examinations are SUPER ANNOYING.
They turned my life upside down. :(
I cried for many times because of stress. Fuuh. So not me.

For the MS mid sem exam, I felt like being cheated.
So, don't blame me if I fail this paper. I've tried my best. :(

And guess what, I'm still wasting my time.
When so many assignments and home works are yelling at me.
Should stop here. Proper update in JULY maybe.
When everything is over. :(

Bye bye.

:'(

2010-06-08T23:49:00.002+08:00

Helpless..
Like nobody can help me..
Can someone just take me away from here?
How am I going to face all these challenges.. with good performance?
:'(

Nearly Explode

2010-06-03T21:36:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry for my bad attitude today.

LOL

2010-06-02T16:39:00.004+08:00

Just few minutes ago, when I was washing my bottle in the kitchen, few women is trying to open my main gate. I'm so scared. I thought they are robbers or trying to break into my hostel since Ridzuan Condominium is so dangerous now, people feel unsecured all the time. Then, they told me they are cleaners from Taylor's! Sorry kakak. XD

Say hello to June, the most evil month.

2010-06-01T22:37:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday to Janice Lau!
My classmate aka the sweet girl!
May all your dreams come true and all the best in studies!
And.. As what you told me,
hope we can get higher marks for our assignment. :P

June is here already! OMG. I guess June will be the busiest month ever. Sigh. Business Maths individual assesment, Malaysian Studies mid semester exam, presentations, and and and.. WE MUST SUBMIT ALL ASSIGNMENTS IN JUNE! When we finally settle down everything, it's time for final exam already. :(

Okay, I'll stop complaining now. Bye. :(

Smile

2010-05-25T21:31:00.001+08:00

True, you caught me looking.
But I caught you looking back.. :)

Last Friday

2010-05-24T19:41:00.002+08:00

After class, we went to Sunway Pyramid.
Had our lunch there and we were so noisy. XD
Then we met my dad and sis there!
OMG
Coincidence huh?
After lunch, ice skating time~

I fell down when ice skating.
Okay, laugh at me loudly.
And the best part is, my dad and sis saw everything.
They laughed at me!
This is my leg's condition now. :(

Oh, bet you want to know something.
The white marks on my leg, which looks like a map,
is actually my birth mark. :D

If you want to view my blog,
you must bear with my fat face lar!
I know you don't want to see my face. :P
Like this shirt but..
It's too boyish. :(

I captured this today.
Ye Yang use wireless mouse to online in class!

While Miss Teh is teaching. Hehe.

That's all see you next time bye.

I can't believe she really did that!

2010-05-23T21:20:00.004+08:00

She is Mandy Tan Jing Wei.
She did this "ai xin bian dang"!
OMG
Boys, you can get her phone number from me! :D
Tomato.
I booked one "ai xin bian dang" from you.
Must be FOC okay. :P

Memorable Moment XD

2010-05-19T20:39:00.004+08:00

OMG! You know what, I got full marks, 50/50 for my Accounting 1!
Mid Sem Exam. :D
Yayyyyyyyy!

Hey mind you, I'm not lansi-ing or showing off okay.
You know, stupid people like me can hardly get good results.

So, I'm jotting it down! XD

It's like once in a lifetime weih.
Maybe, this is the first and the last time?
I know I'm just lucky.

At least I did not disappoint them for this time.
For the next time? I'm not sure. =/

Eye Bags?

2010-05-18T19:43:00.000+08:00

I think I need this. XD

Last Minute!

2010-05-17T18:58:00.002+08:00

I miss band life very much.

Okay, back to the main topic. I always do last-minute-work. But from now on, I think I'm going to change this bad habit. You know why? I've just started doing my Economics 1 assignment yesterday morning at 6.30am, and I slept at 4am today. The assignment's due date is today! LOL! Just now, I woke up at 6.30am, and spent 25 bucks sitting taxi back to my hostel from my home. No more last-minute-work okay! Promise promise.

Oh, btw, thanks to my dearest Fei Hwei aka Kweh Haan Hwei, the one who helped me to check my assignment for the entire night. She slept at 4am too. Tenji ya. ;) Lesson learned, sorry Fei Hwei.

I'm quite sad today. We only manage to get 31/50 for our Business Mathematics group assignment. Nearly fail? Bye bye 9.5%. It means that I have to work very hard for my final exam to get a better grade. :(

Anyway, tomorrow 12pm class! Wohoo~ Tonight, sleep tight!

Today

2010-05-13T16:33:00.002+08:00

How if Totapo is one of the Pokemon?

"Totapo! I choose you!"
"Tota Tota.. Pooooooo!"
*Pikachu's sound*
Then a lot of French Fries will burst out from me.

LOL.
Thanks to Loi2.
He's the one relating Totapo with Pokemon.

Okay. I know it's not funny. XD

Bye exam! Hello assignments.

2010-05-12T19:45:00.004+08:00

Totapo . Tomato . Loi2

For your information

1. This is our Malaysian Studies research.
2. Totapo, Tomato & Loi2 are in the same group.
3. Totapo is me.

4. Totapo = Potato.
5. Tomato is Mandy Tan Jing Wei that leng lui.
6. Mandy called me as Potato because she said my name is very boring.

7. Loi2 created a new name, Totapo.
8. I called her Tomato.
9. Loi2 = Loi Loi.
10. Loi Loi is Loi Chee Hui aka Huat ah!

It's quite detail right? x)

About Mid Sem Exam, our first exam in college, we're taking 2 papers, Accounting 1 & English for College Studies. Only 1 hour is allowed for each paper. The feeling is like sitting on the roller coaster for that precious 1 hour. The MPH actually blackout for 2 times when we're having our ECS paper. "Heads down people heads down! Sleep! Good night & I'll wake you up later." Cute Miss Teh. Mid Sem Exam is over now, but I still can't switch my relax mode on! Endless assignments are waiting for me. I saw them laughing evilly at me.

I've neglected my blog for a long time. I'm too busy to blog. Maybe I'll just squeeze everything I've missed out in one blog post, or blog them one by one. Only if I'm free. :D

幸福

2010-04-30T23:17:00.003+08:00

原来幸福真的可以那么简单。

昨天，老妈给我们一个意外惊喜。
突然下吉隆坡，跟阿姨一起。
我们都以为只是阿姨来而已!
好幸福。
眼泪很自然地就留下来了咯。

刚刚吃了老妈煮的一顿家常饭。
感觉真的很幸福！

心里
满满的都是爱。
=)

无聊

2010-04-27T20:03:00.002+08:00

前几天看见臭文永放上去的这张图片，突然好想念中学的朋友，中学的生活。好久没有人陪我说鸡话了，如果你明白说鸡话是什么。这里的人都不大习惯说鸡话。感觉这里每天都是忙忙忙，忙完这样忙那样。好想放假。也很想念国民服务的日子，想念营里认识的朋友们。哎哟，感觉这几天一直在抱怨。没办法啊，好多事情一下子挤过来，我那比虾还小的脑就快要爆炸了。

之后应该还会继续抱怨，不然就是发狂，对不起。考试要来了啊。

哦，想念老妈煮的菜。

Recently

2010-04-26T21:25:00.002+08:00

I tried to cheer up myself, but it's kinda hard. I felt regret for not studying well in secondary school. Now, facing those same Add Maths questions and I don't even know how to do. When I ask my friends about some questions, they're like, "Did you take Add Maths when you're in secondary school?" Oh, this feeling is not good. Sometimes I can't catch up when lecturers or tutors teaching too. Exam is coming real soon. I'm sure that I got put efforts in studies, but I think it's not enough. I don't want to disappoint them again. I hope that everything will be different. I'm tired with what I'm doing now. Maybe I shouldn't complain too much because others might be more tired than me. When can I have my holidays? I need to go to the beach. Kuala Terengganu's Batu Burok! Someone bring me there please.

Relax Mode

2010-04-23T21:22:00.004+08:00

Stress stress, go away.

Come again another day.

Fun

2010-04-22T19:21:00.001+08:00

Forgive me for my craziness.
But still, it's fun. :D

Feeling Blue

2010-04-08T20:19:00.002+08:00

Recently, I felt that I'm just a weirdo.

Happy Birthday!

2010-04-07T18:57:00.004+08:00

It's my sister, Kweh Soo Hwei a.k.a Potato Sister's birthday on 6th April 2010. Birthday celebration was in T.G.I. Fridays. Nice environment, that makes everyone feels like it's friday! Our surprise plan was failed because she knew everything we're doing. LOL! I hate it when smart people refused to act as she don't know anything. =.="

The birthday girl! =)

The very cute birthday cake!
From Q-Jelly.
Boneless Wings.

Some unknown cheezy things.

But it's nice!

Spaghetti!

Pityful.

Mini dessert.

It's a fun and nice birthday celebration although it's quite simple. Hope that my sister enjoyed her big day as well. =) Be happy and healthy always!

**********

No, Vian, I didn't forget about you! =)

Although I can't celebrate with you this year, and it's really weird, but I still hope that you get what I'm trying to tell you! Best of luck in the future! It's quite sad when I saw those pictures in Facebook that they're celebrating with you without me. But, you tagged me! Hope you enjoyed your birthday! I appreciate you!

Last but not least,

Happy 18th Birthday!

废话

2010-03-16T19:47:00.006+08:00

现在
脑袋真的空空了
以前执着的，放不下的
现在竟然想都没想了
人
果然是要遇到更大的难事
才能放下那些不重要的小事

回想起那天
还真的对自己的成绩感到满意
笨蛋
我的成绩跟别人比起来
连边都沾不上吧

那些听起来刺耳的话
有如当头棒喝
将我拉回现实

说起来
我好像没资格伤心吧
咎由自取

我从来没想过
大家的反应
会这么大
现在我知道
成绩有多重要了
要拼死拼活
取得一等一的成绩
人生才算完美

最难忘记的
就是他们失望的眼神
那种感觉
烙印在心里

埋怨什么？
只可以埋怨自己

脸上还是会有笑容出现的
开始新生活吧
一定要加油！

Cecelia Ahern

2010-03-13T11:52:00.007+08:00

Hello! I am fine now! In this few days, I'm trying to avoid myself from surfing Internet. Wondering if I could live without Internet? So, I picked up a book that I've ignored for a long time. It's Cecelia Ahern's book. Guess what? Her book gives my life a sparkle. I forgot how I get to know about her & her books. But what I know is, I'm in love with her books now.

This is Cecelia Ahern.
She's a genius in expressing those inner feelings!
She's officially one of my favourite author now. :)

Yeah, she's the author of the novel 'P.S. I Love You'.
I guess everyone is familiar with this novel right?

'If You Could See Me Now'
I picked it up & I just couldn't put it down right now.

I'm going to get this soon!
'Thanks for the Memories'
One of my NS friend introduced me this.
Very nice storyline! :D

There's still a lot of her productions. I'm not sure if everyone will enjoy reading her novels but, most of my friends do. She made my day. Give it a try?

Lost

2010-03-12T00:55:00.006+08:00

I'm the best actress today.
I don't give promises, because I'm afraid that I will break them one day.
Spending some time alone.
Running away from reality is not a good idea.
Harsh words reminded me that I'm just cheating myself.
How to face it?
Seems like I'm wrong in every way.
But, no point to cry over spilt milk.
I'm confused.

Just leave me alone, please.
I'll be okay soon.
I just can't overcome it for now.

I'll proof what I promised to myself.
I should keep those promises to myself.
Just simply because
action speaks louder than words.

Leaving

2010-02-19T00:49:00.001+08:00

Going back to Gua Musang tomorrow.
T.T
Take care family & friends.
I will miss you all.
I hope you all will miss me too, although it's just for 20+ days.

"Lou Sang"

2010-02-17T00:17:00.002+08:00

Before

In the process

After

I guess "Lou Sang" is quite familiar to chinese right? Yes, our family "Lou Sang-ed" today. I don't really like to eat because I think those ingredients are quite disgusting. :P

Today, I spent my whole day just visiting around friends' houses. Most of them not in KT so it's quite boring. Guess tomorrow will be more fun than today because some of them will be back.

A short post again, I'm going to sleep now. Good night, I hope that I'll have a sweet dream. :)

Chinese New Year

2010-02-15T22:07:00.004+08:00

Today is the 2nd day of CNY. Our school's lion dance team came to my house on the 1st day of CNY. We took a lot of pictures. I love the photo shooting session of my family on the 1st day of every year's CNY. Activities? Visiting around, eat, drink, online, watch television & sleep. Simple right? :D Oh, it's Valentine's Day on 14/2/2010 too, but I didn't feel anything honestly. I'm not in love! :P

Just a simple post to share about my life in these 2 days! Going to watch television now. See ya.

Chinese New Year Eve

2010-02-13T22:50:00.004+08:00

I've waited for all these like thousand years.
These are the dishes of our reunion dinner this year!
Two thumbs up!

Lovely, wonderful & warm family!
Where am I? I am holding the camera. :P
Special guest, Joie in yellow shirt!

Yes, I just had my reunion dinner as shown in the pictures above. It was nice & warm. I can't wait to blog about it because I like the feeling! :) Before the reunion dinner, we went to visit a doctor. He is the first person who touched me in this world, about 18 years ago on 26/6/1992. I haven't meet him before until just now. The feeling is weird. Time flies & I'm now 18 years old. He's quite old now so he can barely heard what we're talking about. But, when my sister told him that I am the naughtiest one in my family, he nodded his head for few times. :D I wish that I could pay a visit to him again soon. Oh, back to the special guest. Her name is Joie & she is my sister's friend from Hong Kong. She can be considered as one of my sister too! :) So, later I will go to Kampung Tiong's temple with my family. Again, I hope I could meet some friends there. Tonight is a memorable night for me. Seriously can't wait for tomorrow! See ya!

Home Sweet Home

2010-02-12T18:25:00.004+08:00

This is Tong, my best girl!
Without her, I can't imagine how my life in NS would be.
We laugh & cry together, we done a lot of things together.
Thanks!

Nice friends!
Peei, Shan, Ling, Chin, Tong & Vien!

Dorm mates, F01!

It's like finally, I'm back! Just for a week. Seriously, I don't really enjoy in NS. I can't find out the reason. But, I agree with what my brother said. He told me that people would not feel enjoy when they are in pain or uncomfortable situation, but people will learn the most from there. I've learned a lot of things. I just realized that I'm a child that fully protected by my family all the time when I reached there. Home sweet home. The only thing that matters most in our life is family. This is one of the thing I've learned in this short period. So, I'm going to have dinner with my family later & we will go to the Kampung Tiong Sales. Hope to meet my friends there! I miss them so much! I will enjoy my holiday to the max. See you.

Leaving

2010-01-01T22:50:00.002+08:00

I'm going to National Service tomorrow!
Friends, don't miss me too much,
miss a little bit is enough.
:P
My home will be silent all the time without me,
I think.
I will take good care of myself there!
Learn to be independent!
Fei Hwei said that I'm too dependent.
Somehow I think what she said is right too.
So,
everyone please take care of yourself too!
We meet in CNY!
Good luck for friends that are going to study!

See ya~
:)

2010

2010-01-01T01:13:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone! I've started my blog all over again. Old posts were placed at somewhere else. Now, my blog is more neat & I'm happy with that.

2009 was a meaningful year for me. I've gone through my happiest and broken-hearted moments in this year. Now, everything is over.

2010 is a brand new year! I will learn to appreciate my family & friends. So, if I've done anything wrong in the past, please forgive the childish me. Tomorrow I will start my journey to Gua Musang, Kelantan for National Service. I believe that I can be more independent after joining National Service. This is a good chance for me to learn something. You might think that I am stupid or stubborn, but I won't regret for what I've decided. March, I will start to study in college. This is a big challenge for me. Have to work hard! I don't want to waste my time like what I did in the past. Parents are working hard just to support me in further studies, I should appreciate all their hard work! So, 2010 can be concluded as one of the turning point in my life. About personality, yes, I admit that I am emotional, sensitive & childish. I will try to change myself into a better person. Hope I won't forget everything I promised to myself.

Family, thanks for supporting me all the time! Lend me shoulders when I need to cry, lend me ears when I need a listener, encourage me when I'm upset, and never give up on me. Thanks for the love, thanks for the care. Endless love to all of you, my dearest family members. Friends, I'm lucky to have everyone of you. Stay contact whenever, wherever!

This post might sound too serious, but this is what I want to express. Deep in my heart, I really hope that I can carry out everything I promised to myself.

Sincerely, I hope my family & friends can stay healthy & happy in this brand new year. I will always remind myself that life is wonderful. Happy new year! :)